Sunday, November 18, 2007 @4:01 PM
~sheraine~love cannot be measured by time.
love is this weird n scary thing that everyone has to experience at least once.
some say, to fall in love is something happy n blissful.
some think that falling in love is silly as it makes one blind to many other great things in life.
some others believe that falling in love is something essential.
personally, i feel that falling in love is beautiful yet risky.
when u decide to accept love, u have no choice but to also be mentally prepared for goodbye.
not that every relationship will come to an end, but really, u never know.
sometimes it takes more than just love for two people to be together.
when u decide to accept love, u decide to accept a gamble.
u decide to embrace joy and bliss, but with the risk of getting hurt. deeply.
to love takes a lot of courage and strength.
u don't necessarily get back as much as u give.
as in, u can give someone all the love that u have, everything that u've got.
but u still face the same risk of getting hurt as someone who doesnt give it all.
it is that ironic.
then why do some people still choose to give it all for love?
they give it all, thinking that they have finally found the bliss that they've been searching for all their life.
but they end up running back home alone with pain and hurt. all the misery. and a whole damn lot of tears.
maybe these people are just trying really hard to seek happiness.
maybe these people are just plain dumb.i am struggling now.
i am not that brave n strong afterall but i'll try my very very best.
i must get over all this.
i dun wanna have anymore tears behind all the smileys and 'i'm okay' s.
i dun wan the toilet and my bed to be the best hiding places to really face my emotions and take off my fake smiles.
yes i'll try my best.
but i'll also try to remember as much of the wonderful memories as i can. with my shitty memory.
the encouragements n courage given to me.
the brightest star of all.
the chats that we had til dawn.the time that we messed up each others' hair.
the ability to see through the shield i held, to see through all my attempts to pretend to be strong.
the ability to read my mind and feel the thoughts that even me myself didn't know existed.
the promise to protect me. to love me, just me.
the heartbeat that i heard so distinctively.
the hands that held on tight and did not wanna let go of each other.
the rainbow.
the way u tried to shelter me from the rain.
the little cakes (one damaged) with no birthday song.
the wishes.the donuts that we fed each other.
the dinner with the breath-taking view of the pink stretch across the evening sky.
the nights of genuine smiles and laughter.
the hugs n kisses in your bed.
i'll remember all that beautiful memory.
i dunno why i typed that whole chunk of stuff out.P.S: dim sum and ktv til daybreak with my darlings were great :)i hope u'll remember all that too.