Saturday, December 29, 2007 @1:10 AM
~sheraine~i do noe that i am ugly n fat.(yes. i have been feeling even more disgusted with what i c in the mirror recently. to the extend that i am actually seriously considering if i should go for plastic surgery. i need wayyy bigger eyes. a nose job is pretty urgent too. oh n dun forget liposuction.)i do noe that i dun have the best personality a person can ever have.but i also think that ppl uglier/fatter than me do exist.ppl with lousier character than me do exist.and when i c them, if they happen to be laughing, looking joyful n contented, i think silently:i'd give it all to be them.i am serious.i am willing to be even uglier/fatter than i ald am now just to wear that look of contentment on my face the way that they do.i can even forget abt plastic surgery n all if i get to be them.but that will never happen.fuck.i just heard from a friend that everyone's gonna die in the year 2012.well it's only right to find it dubious but he said its a scientific prediction.i dunno abt u but the first emotion i felt upon hearing it is excitement.yes, i felt a little scared too after that but seriously.the main emotion is still excitement.sounds pretty damn crazy but u will b surprised to learn that there r ppl who dun even feel anything upon receiving this piece of news.ppl who feel very 'normal' about it.seems like no one is actually afraid of dying eh?